We are back, but a little different
Well, it has been a bit, or years. To be honest, I lost all kinds of creativity, like many did in 2020, and this blog just sat there. Now that I have had some time to sit with it and things have changed, new ideas have also come up.
My mom suffered a brain aneurysm in October of 2022 and everything that I was working for and my ideas of what I wanted, came to a halt. She passed on November 4th. Those 10 days were by far the hardest I have ever had to work through, but I would go back to see her again. I was ready to change my life and continue to care for her if it meant she would be in the world. But like the doctors said, she was very sick and allowing her to go on her own time was important, even if it hurt those still here beyond anything we could comprehend.
When you lose someone you love, the world you know changes. The person you are takes a new form. When she passed, I was surprised that grief wasn’t talked more about. I had felt that the world hadn’t prepared me for what I was experiencing. I was angry. But the world can't prepare you for it. Even if I had read up on grieving or taken a course, I could not have prepared myself for the shift. My friend told me that everyone grieves differently and you do what you have to do. I took that and ran with it. I searched for the grieving community, I read books, I filled my life with my mom and tried to work through it. I found that people did talk about it, but it was tucked away. It was like its own community that I had not had to explore until now.
In this last year, my sister, dad and I learned more about each other and learned how we were going to navigate without her. Our relationships grew and we were a small but mighty unit. Though its been hard, we are doing it.
My mom and I would talk about starting a blog, so here I am now, doing it. My momma and I had shared that we both were gluten free (not by choice). People bond over food all the time and we just bonded over the fact that we were able to find special little places together. I liked that I had something to share with my mom and I think I will forever be searching for things I had in common with her. Our favorite bakery was in Talent Oregon, Organicos Bakery. It is a dedicated gluten free bakery with some of the best scones and sandwich rolls.
I want this space to share what fun gluten free finds we found, and I continue to find, while also figuring out the last year and forward. Welcome and thank you.